You get up. You try again. But whatever you do, you don’t give up. – A.B.Filed under: Inspiration & Quotes Tagged: Creative Writing, Depression, Emotions, Empowerment, Inspiration, Life, Quote
BLOG 50: May 20, 1999—I was angry at my father inside my dream of almost 20 years ago. In that nighttime journey, I had discovered sculptures of Italy’s Renaissance artist Michelangelo below a pile of ice in a freezer. I was angry at my father for directing conversations toward rational conclusions that had nothing to do with the emotions present in the room. Discovering Michelangelo sculptures below frozen items in my dream seemed akin to discovering the magic, beauty, and life that lay below the frozen emotions of that time.
Back then, I carried a truth that lay smothered below a stoic, cold family dynamic where emotions were avoided at all costs. My truth was this: I loved my father so very much, and I also felt immense hurt and pain (including physical pain) in not being able to share this love with him or feel it from him, or from others in my family. We had learned to be tough and independent, and strong women (I am one of three sisters, and my mother), but we had never learned to express love and that aliveness, which, for me was who I really was and longed to be in this world. I was this sculpture at the bottom of a pile of ice, longing to be carved out into the magical being I was.
Today, the person I was, and the family I once had, has become—with time having carved magic out of stone—a Michelangelo sculpture, so alive, and life-affirming. Just last week, I was with my family—my father, my three sisters, my mother, and my father’s two sisters, Ingrid and Sisi, from Argentina—because my father has been very ill. We all came together to be with him as he lay on a hospital bed in the living room, too weak to stand or take care of himself anymore.
The days together were long, but rich, holding my father’s hands, feeding him, massaging him, and helping with the most mundane of tasks. With his two sisters, he sang songs of their childhood years in Argentina, and when it came to the Argentinean National Anthem, my father’s voice filled the room with a passion I had never heard before. For those moments, all of my father’s weakness and slurred speech left him inside a celebration of the life he had lived and shared.
Unlike earlier times in his life, he reached out to each of us, shared his love, his gratitude, and pulled us toward him to receive and give love (there were other more challenging moments too!). And at one point, he asked my mother to lie on the narrow, hospital bed with him and they held each other. They made up for words and emotions unspoken during so many years past.
Then, my father asked us all to sit in a circle around him, as we did our best to prop him up at the side of his bed. He told us to ask him anything we needed to ask him. He would answer honestly with a clear “yes” or “no”, he said. There we were, five grown women with my father, trying to ask him questions that he felt were senseless (because we already knew the answers). What he wanted, it seemed, was to clear the air, for us to express any emotions or concerns we carried that needed to be spoken so he could go in peace knowing we were okay.
It’s as if my father wanted to melt any remaining ice covering these magical Michelangelo sculptures we had all become, and that he too had become. All the pain, all the years, all the wrestling that my father and I, and all of us had done, to become the beautiful God-creations and works of art we now were, had all been worth it. We were finally here to love and live so deeply together, present to life and death, and to each other, during this final leg of my father’s journey on earth.
*My novel Child of Duende: A Journey of the Spirit is about this journey of coming home to the magical creations we are. Check it out on Amazon. It’s currently at a Promotional Rate, but this ends soon: https://www.amazon.com/Child-Duende-Journey-Michelle-Adam/dp/099724710X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1474233011&sr=8-1&keywords=child+of+duende or at www.michelleadam.net
My words have never been enough to praise your beautiful soul,
My expressions were never enough to bring out my love to you,
My jokes were never enough to make you smile every day,
My mood swings were never enough to accept yours,
My acts were never enough to make you believe in my love,
But that Innocent, sweet smile – a bliss to the Eternal heavens, was enough to make me believe that Yes! You are the one!
WASHINGTON D.C (KPIX 5) — While President-elect Donald Trump was basking in his big moment in the nation’s capitol on the eve of his inauguration, men and women around the country were preparing for a long weekend of protests.
Less than 24 hours until the inauguration of Donald Trump — and what many feel will be a new reality for California — House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi (D-CA) is getting ready to go to the inauguration.
Rep. Pelosi told KPIX 5 earlier this week, “I have to admit that I never thought we would be ever having Donald Trump be President of the United States. But he is, and I will be there in my capacity as House democratic leader.”
But she says there’s one thing she won’t do. She said she will not be going to the ball.
“No, I’m there for the official ceremony, I’m not there to celebrate,” Pelosi said.
She said she’s going to try and get back to San Francisco for the Women’s March being held there, one of a number events planned in the Bay Area.
In D.C., there’s tons of Trump inauguration memorabilia. People are setting up stands by the minute, practically, selling T-shirts, mugs, everything plastered with Trump’s name and face on it.
The Trump inaugural concert at the Lincoln Memorial wrapped up Thursday night, capping off with a huge fireworks display.
The President-elect spoke at a dinner for campaign donors Thursday night. He was then scheduled to spend the night at the Blair House, the the guest house where President-elects traditionally stay the night before taking office.
And some notable names attended the dinner. Caitlyn Jenner was there, but declined to comment to reporters while walking in.
Country singer Toby Keith headlined the Make America Great Again Welcome Celebration at the Lincoln Memorial.
Trump and members of his family were there. He addressed the crowd, saying, “We’re going to make America great for all of our people — everybody.”
The Women’s National Democratic Club has stepped in to help organize the Women’s March on Saturday and on Thursday, women from all over the country were making posters.
A lot of them are also wearing the pink hats that women across the country have been knitting to wear on Saturday.
Nuchhi Currier is the president of the club and said, “There has been an awakening…Sleeping giant watch out.”
Currier says she’s hopeful about what happens next and that the march will be peaceful.
We also ran into a whole table full of women from the Bay Area on Thursday who were at the club, making signs to hold up on Saturday.
NBC has ordered a pilot for the drama “For God and Country,” Variety has learned. The drama is described as “a heart-pounding look” into the complex world of the bravest military heroes who make personal sacrifices, while executing challenging and dangerous missions behind enemy lines. The project hails from Keshet, which is partnering with Universal Television… Read more »
FOLSOM (CBS13) — A teacher who is at the center of a controversy around the Confederate flag in the classroom has opted to retire and will not be returning to the classroom.
The Folsom Cordova Unified School District announced Sutter Middle School history teacher Woody Hart would not be returning at a meeting on Thursday night after he was placed on administrative leave over a complaint a Confederate flag was hanging in his classroom.
Supporters at the meeting pointed out that the flag was hanging alongside a Union flag showing the two sides in the Civil War.
This is the second time Hart is facing racially charged allegations stemming from a classroom lesson. In November, parents of a teen filed a complaint after they say Hart made remarks during a lesson about equality, saying if you were to hang one black person, you would have to hang all black people.
The parents took exception to the remarks in part because their son was the only black student in the classroom.
Former Fox Film chief Jim Gianopulos is in preliminary talks with China’s Dalian Wanda Group to run and expand its Legendary Pictures, according to two sources close to the executive. The discussions with Wanda honcho Jack Gao, whom Gianopulos has known for years, are in the very early stages, the sources said. Many key issues have… Read more »
The Johnson family may soon be taking up more airtime on ABC. The network is considering a spin-off of its hit comedy “Black-ish,” Variety has confirmed. The spin-off, which would star Yara Shahidi, would focus on her character, oldest daughter Zoey Johnson, in college. The spinoff, which is in very early stages, would be introduced as… Read more »
It’s not clear how many were hit, or how serious their injuries might be.